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thefandom-casserole · 11 months ago

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Episode 47 Notes-

- I’m so scared

- Like. Almost more scared than for last episode

- Ahhhhhh

- Hermie my beloved I haven’t stopped thinking about you <333

- (Seriously I’ve been basically exclusively rping you. Channel seven has been wild man)

- Anyways

- Ahhhhhh

- THE INTRO

- OMG

- THEYRE TALKING AHOUT SCAM AND NORMAL AOSNDHAJSBHSKAJSJDJDHDUIEJE

- Im vibrating this is insane

- I love their intros so much

- I LOVE THE PODCAST DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS SO MUCHHHHHH

- Hehe I remember that from last season

- Taylor’s Teen Fact: Taylor’s first fight was in fourth grade because he was getting bullied (by Steve) over his collectible card game so he kicked the guy in the nards. That’s how he got into karate

- Lincoln’s Teen Fact: The first fight and lie between Linc and his parents was when he did a “hunger strike” until they let him go to school (but he actually was eating)

- Will messing up Normal’s intro was way too funny to me

- Normal’s Teen Fact: Normal does a tarot card reading everyday before getting started

- He’s like Mercedes!!!!!!!!!

- I cannot believe that he pulled the reversed Lovers holy shit

- Scary Teen Fact: Scary plays the piano. Because if the letters are rearranged it spells pain-o

- Anthony Fact: They haven’t thrown to their sponsors very often and so that might happen this episode

- Nevermind now he’s not gonna do it 😭

- IF THEY DONT TELL NORMAL ILL LOSE MY KIND

- The way Scary’s telling Linc to not touch Hermie <3333333333

- No hate to Linc lots of love to Scary though

- TWO DEATH FAILS FROM PUNCHING HIM INT HE JUTS IM CRYING

- OH THANK GOD FOR SCARY

- “Where’s Hermie” I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t

- SCARY BEING SUPER THERE ABOUT HERMIE BECAUSE PF TERRY

- The way I started tearing up when they started to pick up Hemrie 💀

- God this is not boding well for the rest of the episode

- LINC NO WE KNOW YOU DIDNT LIKE EHRMKE THIS ISNT COOL AHHH

- Again no hate to Linc he’s a kid

- “We’ll fix them”

- SLAY NORMAL

- WHOO

- “LEAVE”

- Once mischief twins always mischief twins (let’s Hotwire a car together BROTHERRR)

- ANOTHER NAT ONE

- I’m pretty sure I missed the entire thing with Taylor and the gun 😭 I don’t care enough to rewind

- “Lincoln stares at yet more blood he has created and slowly sinks back down” LINCOLN BABY

- ANOTHER NAT ONE

- Ahhhhhhhhhhh this spellll

- NO THE SOELL DIDNT WORK

- ANKRHER NAT ONE HOLY SJIR

- Henry yayyyyyyyy

- THE SPONSOR

- THAT WAS PERFECT

- THAT WAS SO FUCKING PERFECT

- Sooo code purple happened as they were kids okay okay

- IS THAT FUCKING BARRY

- OR SCAM LIKELY????!!!

- Henry looks surprisingly young thanks to a vegan lifestyle and butthole sunning!!!!

- Henry how I’ve missed you!!!!!!!!!

- BARRY YOU SHOULD BE DESD FUCK YOU

- Mercedes is dead 😞

- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

- HES GOOF MATTER NOOOO

- Very Achilles-Patroclus esc oh god

- This is going to either be Willy or Scam oh boy oh no

- Remember when we thought Normal hiding in his mascot outfit was bad??

- Oh good it’s Scam

- He left Scary oh noooo

- The fucking Goofs Realm nauseates me Jesus

- “I’m here when it’s sad I’m here when it’s fun did someone do something to my son” that was pretty good ngl

- I’m going to sob holy shit

- Scam is actually sad omg

- Bits never die is basically what he said omg

- Holy shit holy shit holy shit scam ong omg omg ong

- GO FUCKING NORMAL PUNCH HIM

- Scam is being all depresso like the other adults holy shit 😭

- “You don’t fucking come near him”

- FUCK YEAH MULTI PRONOUNS DOOOD

- “You feel like home” AHHHH OAKSSSSSSSS

- I’m going to sob

- [will sobbing] “OUR SPONSOR AURA FRAMES!!!”

- Yayyyyy this our episode 61. Hm or maybe when Terry Jr. died

- Half of it is burnt like two face!! Like Hermie!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- “I’m really proud of you kiddo” sobbing sobbing sobbing

- The Shade Witch I love this 😭

- I was sobbing and now I’m laughing

- This is so funny

- This whole scene is hilarious

- The sun is a metaphor for something

- “Just this once… just this once… Chaperal on three”

- I’m sobbing I’m sobbing omg ong omg

- The Shade Witch is my favorite character move aside Paeden (I’m joking I’m joking)

- SCARY IM SOBBING

- Is the rogue card still in action???

- FUCK YOU BARRRRRRY

- The same man twice!!!!!!!

- DO WE GET THE VOICES PLEASE GUVE US GHE VOICES

- Nevermindddddd

- OMG THEYRE LEARNIBG TO SHOOT

- That’s insane

- Did Normal cause Code Purple…?

- What did Normal do!?

- Another fucking cliffhanger 😭

- I genuinely think I’m going to be sick ✌️

#dndads spoilers #dndads #dndads s2

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sometimesiammybpd · 23 days ago

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have you ever lost friends that you tried so hard to keep? it's not a fun feeling. and what's worse is consistently getting the blame placed onto you. it's like an endless cycle to me because what brings me down above all else isn't losing people so much as it's the feeling that no one believes i can actually change who i am and how i act, despite me spending so much of my life (to this point) doing exactly that. the point i've tried making for years isn't that i want anyone to feel sorry for me. i just want to stop being treated like it's an impossibility for me or something. like as if the only thing i'm worth is destroying what little people have. and what's funny is at the same time, i feel like i have no place to be saying any of this. it's a struggle that i have never won and as much as i hate having to accept this, it's pretty much most of what makes me . . . well, me. anyways (there is a reason for me bringing all that up, it just comes a bit later). i'm tired of fighting. that's kind of where i've been at for the last couple years because everything is a fight even if it shouldn't be. and it fucking sucks. for the sake of this post, i am going to be referring to three people. we'll call them sarah, nick, and will. and before anything else, i do not want to write every single post about someone i can't get over or something from my past. i swear. the issue for me is that even the littlest of things are so difficult for me to get over and big things are impossible. but i'll explain that more as we go on.

i met nick first of the three. when my parents got divorced, my mom moved into an apartment complex in the next town over. as i started to live with her more, i met nick as he lived only two doors down from me. he was chill from the beginning. he's a giant computer and car fanatic (especially cars) and while we probably shouldn't have worked as friends, we did. we were best friends for a whole decade before everything really went to shit. he was there for all of it. the one person i relied on during the community and trying to finally change and all of it was him. nick. i always used to think that i've only really fucked up when he couldn't take it anymore and stopped talking to me, but in hindsight it's the opposite. it was a problem that he stuck around for as long as he did and never once called me out on what i was doing and what was going on. at least until sarah came into the picture. i don't know how the two of them met, but i met sarah through him. and i did not like her from the start . . . which means i need to make something clear because i know how that will sound with what i'm going to say in a moment.

all three of us were friends two - three separate times (me vs them in terms of how it would end). and the first time me and sarah became friends, i bullied her relentlessly. there's no way to sugar coat it and i don't want to either. i don't try to excuse it because sarah didn't do anything to me. i was just the person that saw someone happy and decided it was my obligation to ruin that because i wasn't. it made me a piece of shit to deal with and the unfortunate part is that sarah stayed around and dealt with more than she ever deserved to. it's not worth really dwelling on specifics because i did spend a lot of time working on myself after this. cause sarah and nick both cut me off after i graduated high school. sarah because she was tired of how i was treating her and nick because of how i was treating sarah. it was rough. i deserved to lose them both cause it was the cycle of them trying to get me to understand i was doing stuff wrong and me not changing even though i swore this time i would. the one thing i want to add here is i was trying. i cannot take back or change the fact that to them, it did not come off that way because at the end of the day, it still led to the same result of me being unnecessarily mean to sarah for ???. but i was seriously trying as early as fifteen. i hate that it took me so fucking long. i really really do.

but point being, i lost them both at once. it was actually more than just those two at the time because i remember that week very well. it was like six to eight friends in total, give or take. and i will admit, i was so set in my thought processes and ways at that point that when i lost them both, i tried my hardest to find any reason to blame them. it had to be their fault because i couldn't admit i did anything wrong. even though in therapy i had asked her so many times why i couldn't stop being so mean to sarah because even i didn't get it, but i wasn't ready to have that conversation. it was a long couple years after that before we even spoke again and i still don't blame them. the first time was all me.

before i can get into like us finally talking again, i have to bring up will. will was someone i met going into my sophomore year of high school . . . i think(?). he was an eighth grader going into freshman year and we met because of us having a shared bus route (we became proper friends sophomore year but met at the tail end of my freshman year) and honestly, the fact we ever were considered friends is surprising. i was a bully to him as much as i was sarah and a few other friends i don't wanna bring up. and yeah, it's not fun reliving this but i also know that i did damage to these people that i'll never be able to undo so i don't really get much of a say (i mean this genuinely, it feels like it isn't but i swear i do). anyways, will and i initially bonded over geometry dash. it was fun at times. we were going to make collab levels and we'd share our current level bests and all kinds of stuff. and like sarah and nick, he eventually cut me off two years later because he couldn't take it anymore. sorry if this feels like a fast play-by-play or whatever. i just . . . there's only so much i can say when it's the same thing over and over. i don't want to share the details because god forbid they find this post and know who i'm talking about, i don't want it to be like as if i got some sick pleasure out of sharing this especially the details (which is why i'm not sharing any of that because it's not worth it). sorry. i get really paranoid talking about things like this.

the next two years for me was all about therapy and trying to understand myself more. i couldn't stop doing what i was doing until i could understand why i was doing it and yeah, it made it incredibly frustrating but it meant that it'd stick (which it did). this was also when nathan entered my life and with everyone else getting less and less able to tolerate me, you can imagine how much i leaned on him more and more. he did the same. i hate that we were both very toxic for each other, but. yeah. i spent a lot of that time trying to break two specific habits. the cryptic posts i made on instagram all the time where i'd basically write a post ALMOST speaking my mind. except i'd leave out just enough that the person would know i'm talking about them but i never directly said it sooooooo... (please don't do this to anyone). the other habit was just the toxicity in general. i just wanted to be less fucking hateful towards everyone. and i did break both habits after a while. and i was so proud of myself when i did because to me, i genuinely was not doing it for me. i just didn't want to hurt anyone ever again OR lose the people closest to me. that really was all that mattered. this was also the point in time when i learned i had adhd (and then later bpd). i refused to let myself get in contact with any of them until i felt like i had actually made progress. and by the time i got there, i understood that they had no obligation to talk to me and i had no right to expect it.

i believe i started with sarah and nick since nick especially was my best friend for 10+ years. i also just really wanted to make it up to sarah because of the endless years of bullying i put on her for no reason. when i messaged the both of them, i did make it clear that i expected them to want to nothing to do with me and that i wasn't here to force it or whatever. i also apologized for everything. it was some of the hardest shit i had to do but it was important and i'm still glad i did. and i got lucky. i got extremely fucking lucky because they both said okay to giving me one more chance. (it was NOT a second chance because they both gave me more than two the first time.) and to be honest, while i was so grateful for the chance, i knew they both wouldn't believe me for a while. after all, the whole "i swear i've finally put the work in and changed" line had come out of my mouth more than once before. and that's kind of where it stood for a long time. i had to spend a lot of time trying to rebuild what little was left from my destruction and i knew full well that at any point, they had the right to cut me off and call it there.

...and surprisingly, it went well. for a while anyways. i made amends with the both of them and while it wasn't the same, it was better. that's honestly where i wish it had ended but it didn't. but before i get into that i want to mention that it went the same for will. sarah actually was the reason why he gave me another chance because sarah actually told him that i had made progress and i wasn't that person. that was also the only time i actually ever believed sarah meant that.

aaaaaand now it's time we talk about the relationships that sarah and nick had with each other and the one will had with someone else. because those are the main reason why we don't talk anymore. before anything gets said though, i need to make something clear. i'll say it again later but this is not supposed to be a hate post against them or their relationship. as well as that, everything i remember about them might not be true anymore. the only point of me sharing this is that it's something i had to deal with that i am trying so desperately to move on from. that's the only reason i'm writing this. i have my issues with them and they damn well have the same with me, but i don't want to do anything to piss them off (at least in the sense of doing it to be petty and vindictive).

sarah and nick's relationship was fucked from the start. and i did take notice but i also didn't say anything i was thinking because it wasn't my place. that honestly was the first time i didn't put myself where i didn't belong, but it was also the only time for a while (more on that in a bit). for full context: sarah was 15 when nick was 17 and when nick started to well . . . pressure her into dating. it started with him making his feelings very much known from the beginning which only brought more problems into the equation. she said no from the start because she had no interest in him and he acted within the same cycle as me at the time where he'd maybe let it go for a month or two and then full swing it again hoping that this time, she'd say yes. and it made her uncomfortable to a point that she had to say something to him multiple times. and he'd do so much to act like her boyfriend even when she wanted anything else to be true. he'd use her face as his online profile picture. he'd drop anything to do something for OR with her. he was so obsessive from the start and it only got weirder and worse as it went on. and i hated that i really couldn't talk about it. i tried a few times during very specific situations but overall it wasn't something i felt allowed to speak about. like completely /gen.

and when they finally did start dating, she hadn't even turned 16 but he had turned 18, so it made the gap even fucking worse. and what really got to me was that he really couldn't handle the idea that maybe this wasn't meant to be. and it led to a moment that i still could replay in a nightmare like it was yesterday. they both came to the agreement that they wanted to explore more sexual things and in the midst of the first time, her parental figure walked in and caught the both of them. you want to know what this got nick? the over-hanging threat of being potentially arrested (or at the very least getting the cops called on him). this was the first real time i had to step in between the two of them. i didn't even want to, but it makes it kind of difficult when i have nick freaking out to me and sarah giving me every last detail for ??? fuck all i guess??? my advice to nick was simple: leave her alone. move on. because the second her parental figure threatened the cops, serious or not, i knew it shouldn't be pushed. but mr. obsession had a different plan: keep talking to her.

the point of all of this is not to trash their relationship or say they're garbage or whatever. i had to bring most of this up because when it comes back to our friendships (and this started the first time but really became a problem the second time), nick outright ghosted me. he already had a really big issue with that because it was common that he'd disappear for months with no reason why. but once sarah got into the picture (and safe to say got broken down enough to actually date him), it was worse. i liked them together overall because i was supportive of my friends and on the surface, it was an almost-perfect relationship . . . on the surface anyways. because the second time around, i started to actually hate sarah. not bully hate where i was unnecessarily toxic and mean and all that. like, actual hate. and i didn't take it out on her. i wasn't going to do that again regardless of how i felt. i started to hate her because of how she treated nick and my friends / me in general.

when it came to nick, she was controlling. before she had her license she was infinitely worse but as far as i saw, it never stopped even after. everything she wanted to do, he had to be there. he was her personal chauffeur for years while she'd belittle him and trash him and manipulate him to his fucking face. one clear example was her saying unfiltered that "she doesn't like my car and is refusing to let me take her anywhere as long as i drive my car." that kind of shit made me so angry. what kind of ungrateful motherfucker takes advantage of their bf like that just to then tear down the one real thing he prides over. and when it came to everything else, she wasn't any better. if you put it into honest terms, she did everything she could to make him her bitch. like i wish i was overexaggerating. and it really upset me because for all the times i hated his guts, he was my best friend. but i couldn't say anything because she also overreacted so much that if you dared say a word, if she didn't say anything nick would.

when it came to everyone else, she just really never cared about anyone but herself. one of her best jokes was telling others to kill themselves and THEN take offense when you call her out on it. i should know as she did it to me when i was on the edge of suicide and i almost did it that night haha. anyways. as i did my best to change my behavior, it honestly made me realize how much of what i once did to her and my friends, she was doing to others. and being honest, i blame myself. i do wonder what would have been the outcome if i hadn't been the way i was to her. because yeah, i hate her. but she was one of my closest friends for years and at the end of the day, i wanted to help her after trying to get help for myself. her parents did NOT make that easy. not only did they hate me talking to her, they didn't really believe in the idea that therapy could help or do anything at all. so the idea of it was off the table before you had the chance to put it anywhere near the table.

i felt bad and wanted to help but it made it so fucking hard when after all the work i did specifically for them of all people because i wanted to be better BECAUSE of how i treated them, they refused to ever even accept the notion i had changed. a couple months in, maybe a year, i get it. but i never got that chance. and on one hand, i see why and even if i don't understand it's fine. but on the other hand, i started to realize it was becoming more and more difficult to keep growing and changing and learning from my past to better my future when i was surrounding myself with people who could ONLY see myself as the 18 year old who seemed to take pleasure in making others suffer (i'm around 21 by this point). and i wasn't. i hoped i wasn't. and every time i talked to them, i felt like i was. i felt like nothing had changed and i tried to explain myself but they didn't really seem to want to listen.

the final straw for me was when my friend (whom bore the blunt end of most of my panic-induced conversations where i was starting to believe i hadn't changed and i was even worse for convincing myself i had for years) got into it with sarah which led them to not talk to each other for a bit. except that sarah was trashing them in my dms. trashing my fucking friend to me behind their back. i told sarah multiple times to talk to them and i kept getting the "no it's fine" excuse. that led me to go to my friend myself because i wasn't going to sit there and let that go on and of course, they were beyond pissed. wouldn't you be? they eventually made up but in my mind, it was over. i didn't want to be around them anymore. so i wrote this long message (two actually, one for each) where i laid everything out. i wasn't aggressive or angry because i didn't feel that way AND i wanted to make sure it didn't come off that way. i just put it out there because i couldn't it anymore. them treating me like that and expecting me to somehow still change, the way sarah treated my friends and nick, the fact that nick basically stopped being my friend for sarah, sarah's controlling behavior and her toxicity, all of it. because it's never went well for me in the past when it gets to a moment like this. i knew that there'd be no chance in hell that we'd ever try being friends again and i was okay with that. i just wanted them gone because it was better for me and i still would choose my current friends over them in a heartbeat. and i want to make it clear too, it wasn't an easy decision. i know i kind of made it sound like it, but it wasn't. it took me a week to send it because i was ending a decade-long friendship for good. he was my rock for longer than i could count (not really) and i wasn't ready to say goodbye, even if i knew it was for the best.

and so i sent it to them. i immediately blocked because i knew they weren't going to respond well. i wasn't being anything but assertive of myself but i was the one that was trying to change. they weren't. and i promise that's not me saying that to attack them. it just became something i came to realize and hated myself for a while for doing so. but, yeah. and it should have ended there. but i happened to forget one account and they sent a response basically just attacking me on all fronts.

they called me manipulative and accused me of just straight up hating their relationship. i got told that it was my fault if i started to feel like i was regressing, change wise. they (like always) accused me of just not taking accountability because god forbid someone else be wrong. it was just so much hate and in the moment, i felt so much rage that i wrote an incredibly hate-filled response. like pages of just anger and fuck yous and all that shit. it really sent me into a bad episode and i still have that message . . . but i never sent it. and i never plan on doing so. because i knew that's what would happen. i knew it'd end in a firefight because it's who they are. it's who i was for a long long time and it was a rude awakening when i realized they still were even if i wasn't.

i don't hate them anymore even if it feels like it so much of the time. but i am just tired of thinking about them all the time. like as if something could have been different even though i had to accept their friendship was only detrimental to me. it's just not fucking fun. and don't worry about will, by the way. i might write about him later. i don't know. i don't really care anymore lmao. sorry. all this shit really dragged me down because this was so much of my life that i had to give up and not really by choice. yeah.

#bpd #losing friends sucks #but maybe it's for the best #who fucking knows

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snarkylinda · 2 years ago

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I should be studying, showering, sleeping, doing literally anything else but instead, I am going to do a long post about a mentally ill blorbo because I am mentally ill myself.

SO! We all make fun of Spencer let me take my vest off and lower my gun for no reason Reid, it's a meme at this point- but that....tendency is a consequence of what I find the most fascinating about his character as a whole....his relationships- or more like, the relationships he makes up in his head.

Before I go into details I want to leave something very clear that anyone that has seen even one season of the funny cop show has noticed: Spencer is highly obsessive.

Now I am not talking about his fun little facts or that he likes star streak and doctor who obsession- those are hyperfixations, and even tho MY hyperfixation it's ruining my life, his are actually harmless and overall make him happy.

His obsessive nature had almost cost him his career, if not his life, multiple times.

If you stop to think about it in depth, why does Reid abandon all common sense when it comes to certain UnSubs, certain cases? well the most evident answer is that he projects whatever trauma of the week they decide to explore onto them- and yes, that is the nick of things. He pulled that stunt on Elephant's memory because he related to Owen's harassment story, he wanted to help Nathan because he understood being afraid of your own mind turning against you, he wanted to help Adam because he couldn't save Tobias. You get the drill- but....that is not always the case.

With the guy that Lindsey's dad murdered- Spencer didn't relate to him, he was just a piece of shit. How about Samantha? (I know there is a theory about William....doing shit to Reid when he was younger and while I can see it, for the sake of argument I will take her case into consideration) The father of the victim on "Identity"? I can name another example but this one I am going to save for last since it's the reason for me making this post-

And one can argue "Well, he is just a really nice guy" and while that is true- what I named before doesn't always apply, Spencer's compassion has a very clear, marked limit.

His relationships.

When Cyrus was killed in front of him by Morgan, Reid barely blinked- hell, he fucking SASSED him. Why? because he hurt Emily.

All sympathy he could have had for Cat before she ruined his life DESPITE kind of empathizing with her story based on what HE was going through went out of the window because she and her lil gang terrorized Penelope for months.

He felt compassion for Adam, but not for his father who he claimed was the true monster of this story in the aftermath.

When Maeve told her her ex was dead, he quickly brushed that aside to ask her if SHE was alright.

And ofc, we all know what happened in prison after his friend there was murdered.

Reid is often associated with UnSubs not only because of how his backstory aligned with their motivations (mental health issues, bullying, absent parent, losing a loved one) but because most of these crimes are passional responses- and Spencer can be extremely passional, to a point where it clouds his judgment.

Now...you might be thinking "ok that is all nice and good, but where does the obsession come into play? all that I know is that he is a cinnamon roll that loves his friends and has some really deep projection issues he really needs to work on" and you are not wrong, but what made me make this fucking thesis in the first place its something else....one of my favorite things to analyze about fictional characters in this kind of setting it's "the needs of one vs the greater good" thing.

Now let's be fr, we all as human beings will always, ALWAYS prioritize those close to us over literal strangers. Even among the best, most empathic people that is just how it is, that emotional hierarchy will always be there- what differentiates us is how much it affects our actions.

Now with a job like this, there will always be this conflict among the menbers- obviously, their families and even each other will always be a priority, but on working hours their focus HAS to be on doing their job, following the rules and just being as professional as humanly possible- even tho it sometimes kills them inside since it just doesn't feels right.

Reid actually doesn't face this debate that much- because all common sense, respect for authority and protocol goes out of the fucking window whenever he obsesses over a new blorbo lmao.

Had you heard the phrase "One death is a tragedy, a hundred is a statistic"? nothing rings more true that with Dr. Reid right here. He is able to keep his cool while touching mangled corpses and discussing all the shit that happened to them- occasionally looking horrified if it's messed up enough, but other than that he is able to keep the same level of professionalism and compartmentalization as his co-workers.

Annnnnnd then he gets to know a victim, a witness, or an unsub and the vest leaves his torso, his gun folds itself and his IQ lowers. Alot.

Let's get back to the example I put of the guy that was murdered by Lindsey's dad- in that moment he wasn't a murderer to Reid, in that moment all he saw was a teenager begging for his life and HE could be the only to save him- he couldn't. He obsessed over that instead of what the guy did and that lead him to desire to insert Diluid inside of him after 10 months of sobriety, not to mention being A BIG factor in what he does on Elephant's Memory.

"I thought I could save this one" was his response when Hotch scolded him.

Spencer literally can't forget shit. So he tries to make sure that when he knows someone, even if is on a dying moment like the mentioned UnSub, he can save them. He forms some kind of bond with someone and they stop being an face and a name adhered to his board that he is determined to save/get justice for because is his literal job and he is overall a good person. In his mind, it becomes his responsibility whenever that person it's saved, and when that crosses over obsessive territory and his job, that makes it mandatory to always put the need of the many vs the one (especially if it's an unsub) well....

It's when he spiral and puts his career/the case in jeopardy at best, and his life at worst, no to mention what that shit does to his already questionable mental health.

In the second ep of the tenth season, Reid confesses to Morgan that after killing the LDSK, it suddenly hit him and he obsessed over all the "what ifs", at that moment that guy wasn't the LDSK that almost got him, his boss and a hospital full of mortal hostages in danger- he was the man that Spencer Reid killed- and it only ended when he stopped obsessed over HIM and started to put his victim's faces on his wall, forcing his focus on them instead.

He was more focused on the father of the victim on "identity" than the actual unsub himself because years before he had stopped him from seeing his daughter, and had made enough of an impact to be remembered by him in the present. Thanks to that bond, that little relationship, Spencer was able to put himself between a highly emotional distraught father's gun and the man he wanted to kill, to protect him.

He didn't get to personally know Samantha until the end- but he got to meet the scumbag that raped her. Add that to the already soft spot he has for children and you have a very angry Reid ready to do literally anything to make sure this woman that didn't even knew him was safe.

And ironically enough, what prompt me to do this thesis wasn't even one of those nice touchy feeling moments Spencer had with someone he bonded over- either personally or on a parasocial level- but one where he was wrong, but was about to risk a whole case over it. Rock Creek Park.

In that episode, Spencer and this other girl are keeping watch over this mafia thing so this politician guy's wife cane come back (as you can see I pay attention to certain scenes more that others lmao) and you can see the exact moment where the mission....stops being Spencer's priority.

After hearing this girl's conversation with her mother, she stopped being "the maid" and became someone Spencer's "knows" and so this leads to....this

....why did I bother with that text block when this scene spills it out- Anyways.

I dunno why but Rossi's reaction always sends me to the stratosphere- he knows.

Anyways, turns out that the helpless maid was actually on it all along and Reid almost throws the entire case off over nothing- *slows clap*

Ok ok, this might seem like I am slandering my boy but as fun as it is to make fun of him, this is exactly why I love him. This recklessness as a result of tunnel vision it's....concerning considering his line of work, and his eagerness to go far and beyond for someone he barely knows just because he knows them, above everything else and he is there, and can't bare the thought of not doing anything for them., to have their death's imprinted on his memory.

In conclusion- he ain't lawful good/neutral like the first few episodes want to make you think, he is chaotic good. And a mess. And I love him.

#criminal minds #spencer reid

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mugenloopdalove · 7 months ago

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I don't think anyone thinks Theil or your story is bad. Indifference isn't the same as hate. They're no better or worse than the other thousands of tav ocs on here, but we straight up don't know enough about them to have an opinion. Dropping an entire fic about a character that nobody has been given a reason to care about isn't going to work for anyone, unless they're popular with an established following. And even big creators have flops.

One thing about Theil that I don't get from their backstory is their personality, and how they are as a person? You gave a laundry list of things that happened to them, but not really how these things affect them. Losing their parents, discovering magic powers, and living on the street must have had some effect on them, surely? Nobody gets through that upheaval without changing even a little bit. "They went through things that would straight up break another person, but they didn't really care and were fine" doesn't cut it unless you explore why they didn't care.

Have I really. Not talked about their personality at all and why they're so... Unaffected by shit.

I can't remember what I say on discord vs what I say on Tumblr these days (I also think I said some of this in my more detailed backstory post? but I can't find that one anymore since Tumblr search ate it.

Anyway

They mourned their parents somewhat, but no more than one would a teacher or an older community member. Once that feeling passed they were actually somewhat happy because they had no one telling them what to do, and actually... Managed pretty well on their own. Between their magic, sneaky hands, and cute face, there wasn't a whole lot of a struggle. They stole what they could and knew how to make a cute face and look like a helpless kid if they needed anything. There's one baker in particular that they could pretty much ALWAYS get something off of. He called them curls bc. Curly hair, curled horns. Curls. (They also didn't talk a whole lot then. Which is funny bc as an adult they can't shut the fuck up.)

Somethin also worth noting is Theil feels anything negative and lies even to themself about it. A part of them did always know a lot of their life was Fucked. They could see families pass them by. They could tell that other kids had better lives. As they got older. They felt lonely with their hookups and never having any commitment. It's why they latched onto Reya so hard.

And especially over the course of their adventure they have to Face the Facts like. Fuck. They saw a guy make a deal w a god and become an embodiment of evil for his daughter. But they kind of spent their whole life shoving any pain WAY DOWN and never let themself feel it because they just hate it and feel weak if they aren't keeping that tough exterior.

And once again this absolutely gets worse when they meet the party because. Well everyone's got their problems. I have to shoulder them. I don't have time for their problems plus my problems are so small compared to theirs (buddy u have just as many problems as the rest of them).

They would eventually break but they were really damn good and spending 31 years of their life pretending to be okay when the reality was they were just seconds from snapping at any given time.

#i SAY they didnt care but #its way more complicated than that

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mbrainspaz · 2 years ago

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Christians going "Yeah I'm christian, go ahead and persecute me! I'm used to it!" is so sad and funny at the same time. Especially in America. You're not gonna get that from me hun. Like I'm gonna waste my energy talking to christians after I had to spend a decade deconstructing my own faith. Either you'll figure things out eventually or you'll double down until you're fully entrenched. As long as you leave non-christians alone that's your business.

I know if some burned out queer cowboy hobo had told 20 year old christian kid me what their adult life was really gonna be like...

"kiddo, I know you're a vaguely nationalist christian fundamentalist now but just wait until every aspect of your blessed social order fails you and you spend a little time homeless. Oh—you thought you couldn't be homeless if you just worked hard enough? Honeyyy. Your first 'christian' bosses won't even give you lunch breaks even though they live in mansions with their trophy wives. You got a degree so you could sell their scammy fake diet pills and live on instant potatoes with hot dog bites and sleep on the floor by the fireplace in your first drafty apartment like it was 1813. Also you have mental illnesses. Spoilers. No, you can't just power through ADHD. Yes it is a real thing. So is the family history of chronic depression your dad hasn't told you about yet. You think that's bad? Wait until he disowns you during the pandemic. Don't worry about the pandemic yet, but yeah, that's how you ended up homeless. Why didn't you just buy a house? With your christian husband? Ohhhh. Ooooof. Well let's gloss over the next few economic disasters but basically you're gonna nearly marry a guy next year until he loses his temper and destroys your trust. It's for the best though because he kinda turns into one of those right wing gun nuts a few years down the road. Dodged a bullet there! Literally lmao. Oh you... you want to know why you didn't become a missionary? So the church actually doesn't let 'single women' do mission work. Yeah... yeah it is to stop you from leading the single male missionaries astray. You kind of already knew where that was going. Don't worry, the misogyny only gets more blatant from here. Just wait until you're 25. Hey, remember how fun it was to sit with your parents in church? You get to do that for so many more years because there are no other unmarried 20-somethings in fundamentalist churches. If you leave and go to a different church your dad will disown you. He does that like 6 times though, so it does lose its sting. What were the other times? Um... okay so it was 'going to a church he didn't like,' 'being too single,' 'not praying enough' (don't ask me to explain that one, I'm still confused), 'having too many pets that might scare away the men,' and 'not voting for trump.' Oh! By the way, if you get a chance to go to a state fair and throw tomatoes at that guy in say... mid 2015, don't pass that up. You'll regret it. Especially while you're stuck living on a ranch with looney white nationalists in the aftermath of the 2020 elections. Oh shit—right! You don't even know white nationalists really exist! Wow. You've really never had to overhear a single conversation where white boomers fantasize about going downtown to do armed 'patrols' of black neighborhoods. By that point you'd realized you were very alone in a southern town that had already tried to off you in a multitude of disturbing ways. They weren't keen on the idea of you being queer either. I know you already know but you—yeah, you just assumed it would be easier to hide and go along with the status quo. Naaah. Nope. Not worth it. You only really wanted to do that so your parents would love you and that was a loss from the moment they put conditions on it. You could never have done enough to earn their love. They don't have it to give. That's on them though. Ok big question time: Do you still believe in god? Yes and no. Give it like... 14 times of people saying 'it's god's will' whenever something goes their way and another 20 of them accusing you of consorting with demons whenever you disagree. The pattern becomes pretty clear. Maybe you do still believe in god but definitely not your parents' god. And definitely not any god that would be on the side of empires and bigots. In fact, not any god that would let those powers claim him... if he had any power to stop them."

"But I do at least get a bunch of animals?"

"Oh yeah. Smeags is still alive. Right now I've got three dogs and a freaking horse that looks exactly like our favorite childhood stuffed animal."

"A HORSE!?"

#deconstruction #ex evangelical #conversation with my past self #10 years later #ramble #personal problems #be careful where you put your faith #imaginary conversations

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feuqueerfire · 5 months ago

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Wandee Goodday Ep 6 Live Blogging

After failing terribly to keep up with 23.5 weekly, I'm happy that I'm catching the first episode that I'm watching as it airs on the day that it airs rather than 4 weeks down the line. I had to wait for 4 days since I finished ep 5 and it wasn't too bad of a wait but I'm also not disengaged. I think it helps that Oh No! Here Comes Trouble, the show I'm binging right now, is good but I can put it down for long enough to catch an episode of a different show without just wishing to watch Trouble instead.

Ep 6 (June 8)

6-1

domestic morning, as it tends to be with them

Yak sharing a past weakness with Dee. Also comes back to the fact that Yak hates to lose since he said he remembered his first boxing match loss for a long time

A bet? Among a pair who likes to win (Dee) vs hates to lose (Yak)? My bet would be that Dee will miss him more but since he's aware that he maybe likes Yak, he'll hold off on showing it whereas Yak will end up breaking first because he may not even realize just how much he's emotionally involved

So how are they supposed to figure out who misses the other more since they're calling and talking all the time

aw, Dee is alone at home and missing Yak and reminiscing about some conversations and wants to talk to Yak more

boxing elephant pants plug

toothpaste on mirror thing, pls you haven't seen Yak in like 3 days, you'll be fine!!

oh 3 days fr

at least Yak is also semi-aware that he kinda likes both Dee and Taem and even discusses it a bit with Yei

when Yak looked up from his phone and stared into the distance, I got afraid that Dee was gonna randomly open the doors lol

girl?! lmfao he showed up fr

I did think Dee was gonna lose his mind missing Yak but I wasn't actually expecting him to go meet him or to show it.

6-2

Dee drove 2 hours and is planning on driving back 2 hours because he has an early morning tomorrow? my guy

Great/Yak really just looks so Nong in this outfit and this night with both Yei and Dee, cutee

a chin kiss is so funny sorry

Ter constantly speaking over Dee again, aghhhhhh >:(

How often do we get to cheer for 2 beds rather than 1?

pushed the flights back by two days?! bro, Ter's audacity knows no bounds

let's kill this guy

6-3

non-binary genders mentioned

the kiss attack when Yak drags Dee out to the staircase is so cute

Kao don't tell Dee to get back to Ter!

all this discussion at the hospital, I'm always worried that Ter or one of the gossipy nurses are gonna overhear

spoke to soon. Ter watching Dee watch Yak

Taem being in the hospital makes everything chaotic because YakDee are supposed to pretend they're boyfriends while they're here but Taem should think Yak's still single and likes her. hard to juggle such contradictions

Cher's naughty hand hehe

is Cher insinuating they had (video) call sex? how fun

I wish they wouldn't do the 2 pairs' makeout scenes spliced together like this lol feels awkward

6-4

Yakdee on a double date with YeiCher ahh just confess guys

Second time Yak's helping Dee cross the road, I wonder when they'll get into his trauma with the road crossing and his parents' deaths

ah, debt collectors

Dee being part of the family being brought up twice in like 2 minutes

YeiCher are literally sooooo cute, I'm afraid of the debt collectors and how that'll affect their relationship

had to pause at the "If you hadn't passed by when I was assaulted" because what?!

Though I guess the follow up makes sense that Cher then wants to learn how to defend himself and so became a customer

You like him, Dee!

Very short episode, less than 45 minutes long including credits and the preview. Also feels like not much actually happened and there wasn't much progress emotionally or plot-wise beyond Ter making a move again, Dee kind of seriously considering how he feels about Yak, and we the audience see the debt collectors but Cher doesn't.

I knew Ter was gonna pull some shit but I was still so mad seeing him speak over Dee again! and then delaying their flights without discussion with Dee? let's just kill him wtf

I'm keen to see YakDee kiss or realize feelings or confess or anything and for Cher to discover all the debt Yei's in and have a discussion or falling out or whatever's coming. I want some progress on at least one of these fronts next episode.

#ep by ep commentary #wandee goodday

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minimooberry · 2 years ago

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15 Questions for 15 (girl idk that many 😭) Mutuals

thanks @druidberries for tagging me!!!

Are you named after anyone?

i feel like this is the dumbest thing ever bc like technically I’m named after my mom, or at least inspired by it, but we have very different names I just have the tamil version and she has the hindi version. My name means sweet melody and hers means melody. The reason I think it’s funny is because when my parents were getting married my dad asked his old teacher to come to it and upon hearing my mom’s name the first thing he says is ‘Oh her name’s Hindi so you should name your daughter the Tamil version.’ and here I am 😭😭

When was the last time you cried?

I literally have no idea probably like two weeks ago though I always got some shit going on lmao

Do you have kids?

absolutely not I’m in high school 😭 I’m still kind of on the fence of if I want them but if I do decide to have them I want a twin boy and girl and then I’m done pjasdhad

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

life is better when you’re sarcastic

What sports do you play/have you played?

I’ve danced for like, ten-ish years but other than like, badminton (and literally who is bad at badminton) I hate doing sports mnskjdksj

What’s the first thing you notice about other people?

Appearence wise I notice their eyes first, I don’t know if it’s because I draw a lot or wtv but I love looking at people’s eyes I’ve never met anyone without beautiful eyes. Aside from that I notice if they’re like?? comfortable talking to me because I hate the feeling of someone not wanting to talk to me I’d rather just back off first aksdjlasdj

Eye colour?

It’s the most boring colour of brown like it’s not even a cool type of brown it’s just. Desaturated brown 🙄

Scary movies or happy endings?

Horror movies with happy endings 🔛🔝🤭🤭 I watched this korean horror movie and they switched the ending from good to bad in the last five minutes and I hated everything about that decision tbh I’m a hurt/comfort girly till the day i die

Any special talents?

I don’t knowwww I don’t pay attention that but I am incredibly skilled at losing everything I put down ngl

Where were you born?

Toronto!!

What are your hobbies?

the sims (obviously), drawing, writing, reading, I like knitting a normal amount, literally anything to do with biology, true crime, failing at playing horror games w/ my friends, andddd I think that’s it? I’ve been getting into blender recently tho!

Do you have any pets?

girl i WISH 😭 i’ve been asking my parents since literally before I can remember and their answer is always ‘we already have three dogs at home’ like bae it’s been over a decade pls get a new comeback 😒😒

How tall are you?

6 feet tall 🥱🥱

Fave subject in school?

i love Science when I actually understand it I’ve always been into it which is why I’m going into medicine after I graduate like women in STEM core is going so hard

Dream job?

UMMM I’ve always wanted to be in medicine(well, ever since I made the decision when I was 7) but I’ve kind of jumped in between a few paths. Like I wanted to be a midwife, then I wanted to be a neo-natal nurse (still debating this one tbh it’s mad interesting) and I also want to be an anesthesiologist bc it’s cool and they make bank but either way I have to take the same courses all the same so it’s fine

also don’t know if any of yall have done this so just ignore this if u have and spare me the shame 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️: @strangecowplant @crsentfairy @afrolotus @finnsim @sierraelil @simsyworld @shadezovgray�� @d4isy-nukes @buttertrait @izharza @helltrait @baersims @bnt0 @alt-simz @nooboosim

#tag game #!!

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ruby-red-inky-blue · 2 years ago

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random notes on naddpod c1 ep 1-45

shared here in lieu of chewing my very indifferent friends' ears off irl. For whom it may concern. also why do i keep thinking i could keep these to a single post. this campaign has a hundred episodes.

spoiler warning! you will get no context but still

Scoutmaster Denny *murdered* me. The voice, the whole deal. I started this podcast on a trainride and fully lost it over Denny in public

“Let’s cast waterwalking on the boat!” “…Emily, that’s just a boat.”

Hardwon on the dumb mating call idea: "can't we just break a bunch of sticks or something? why do we have to make it horny?" and Murph losing the fucking plot in the background

DM lightly threatens player’s pet, endangers his marriage, more at 10

JONAH

“The animals are going batshit. Even the bats.”

legit every time they describe someone and then land on "they're just hot" almost nothing they describe works for me, it's kind of hilarious

also a truly staggering percentage of the NPCs are naked

Moonshine is saved by an almost literal Deus Ex Machina as Pawpaw descends from the Heavens carried by a very helpful centaur

The reaction to the last remaining dude attacking Beverly in the Ezry lab cracked me up. “We’re trying to watch a cutscene! Read the room!”

whenever Emily shows the slightest hint of disappointment or frustration the world will immediately alter just a little to make her feel better (like retroactively making the stairs unsafe because Emily saved a whole spell slot to climb the wall of the tower). This is the cutest shit and also it took them TWELVE episodes to call Murph out on it

(I'm much further into the podcast now and i can't believe none of them have tried to weaponise this blatant weakness even once)

A BROOMBA is sweeping the floor

nothing is better than Murph doing Pawpaw but his fucked-up sounding seagull is a close second. Truly capturing the personality of those damn bastards, the man is the king of the garbage critters

Emily feels SO guilty about sending this dumb bird to die

Coming into this with the only prior experience of DnD being Brennan and Aabria is kind of wild. Like D20 campaigns you'll get the big philosphical speeches for the emotional beats and here's Murph with an equally heartfelt "Life just sucks ass, you know?"

Hardwon finding out about his parents is SUCH a good scene

“Are they bioluminescent?” “No.” “Can they be?” “Yeah, okay.” (16/17)

“Get out of town!” “I can’t, I’m a mushroom. I just stay here.”

Emily: “Oh, scrying means spying!” “It doesn’t, but-“ Murph, .2 seconds within Emily getting ‘um actually’-ied on dnd: “It does in this game, wiseass.”

Ol' Cobb’s big day!

When Hardwon goes down and the whole table has to watch Murph fight this intense squirmish against himself. Just a guy rolling dice and talking to himself. God that’s so funny (19/20)

Bev’s big day! Also Bev’s first kiss! (19-20)

they’re really going all out for Ol' Cobb. Now he has a tragic lovestory too! (21)

“The High Elves believe that they were banished because they were cousins who wanted to get married. The Crick Elves believe they were third cousins at most. The truth is somewhere in-between.” “Second cousins?” “They were second cousins.”

Not to be cheesy on main but the Crick is such a love letter. Like it’s so obvious how much care and heart went into this almagation of all the silly asides Emily has thrown out

I have one (1) American irl friend and they're from a smalltown in North Carolina so all I'm hearing is people approximating my friend's accent with varying consistency and success

the Crick sounds like paradise and my worst nightmare, simultaneously

having Pawpaw's mother speak and also speak in the most matter-of-fact serious tone (22) is the funniest thing to ever happen. truly inspired.

Hardwon swears fealty to a middle-aged possum? what is happening

Jake v Murph’s ice ban is priceless (23) - “I caught Jake downstairs shovelling ice into his drink out of a bucket with a scoop - you had a scoop! - and he tried to cover it up and hide it!” “It was a joke!” “It sounds like you got caught though! Can you get caught making a joke?” #lifttheiceban

“I’m sure people will get the expedited version of the puzzle solving section-“ “No, give them the nine-hour cut, with just a full hour of us screaming at Murph begging for the answer.” “Join us for our new podcast, Puzzle Dullards.” (23)

Increasingly chaotic openings: “I am furious and I am also Brian Murphy” “If you edit out all my binks, I swear to Melora I’ll… I’m gonna pants you in your sleep!” (24)

Moonshine describing marble as “polite rock”

Emily attempts some straight up gaslighting: “Can I summon Illuminate Mystery?” “…that’s not… that’s not a real spell, you jerk.”

“Murph, if you kill Meemaw regardless of what happens in the fog just because it’s narratively interesting, I will sleep on the couch. For months.” “If Murph sleeps on the couch, is that a Murphy bed?” “No, I’ll sleep on the couch.” “Okay, if Meemaw dies, Emily will be punishing herself.” (25)

Not Murph giving Moonshine crickrot only to be audibly distressed when Emily is sad about it (26)

And then channeling this distress through her fictional pet possum

Pawpaw really is the funniest self-insert character of all time

“Balnor, are you from WWI?” I adore this theory and wish it were canon. But also he talked about fridges a bunch so probably not?

Okay but in all seriousness the whole Marabelle arc is SO GOOD

And Hardwon’s earnest devotion to Mawmaw is actually oddly touching ngl

Murph as the voice of Hardwon’s drug addiction is *devious* (30)

That NPC casino employee making zero efforts at the pirate lingo

Siobhan’s character trying to talk to Pawpaw!! Pawpaw being described as Moonshine’s accountant!!

Literally my reaction whenever pawpaw makes an appearance:

Moonshine backing out of that threesome and opting back in like five times and also roping Balnor into it is GOLD

Genuinely the strategy to fake an immediate orgasm and sprint out in embarrassment is actually probably not the worst way to get out of a foursome? Maybe?

"And Siobhan Thompson as Apple Scrumper." "MVP! MVP! MVP!" "Yeah, Apple is the only one conscious right now." "Right now, MVP stands for Most Vertical Person."

Murph treating his Jersey accent like a full-on speech impediment

"Why are you writing that down? I haven't given you guys anything!" "This is Caldwell, out of character, trying to be helpful!" "No, this is Caldwell, out of character, wanting that money for Bev!"

(in)voluntary horse murder

Emily's thornwhip move!! her MIND

"So do we go and look for him or do I just cast Skywrite and make the clouds say something threatening to him?" "You're going to threaten him with clouds? Okay."

"LIAR! LIAR BOY! YOU'RE NOT A REAL GREEN TEEN!" "I would never lie! It's true! The stratosphere wouldn't allow for it, I'm sorry!"

Murph making a huge deal about how it would be impossible to see skywriting at night when the way bigger issue is that Moonshine is illiterate. They keep forgetting that and it's funny every time

Moonshine firmly believing that Pawpaw knows how to write and him just writing "MO" every time is my absolute favourite bit I hope it never ends

"Wait a minute, you're in the middle of a swamp and you summoned a big, beefy horse?" "Horses can swim! Horses can swim!" "We've all seen Neverending Story, okay?" [crowd boos] "I will kill your horse! I dare you to boo me!" "Don't boo, he thrives off of it..."

Murph is channeling so much rage at something workout related here. who hurt you

"You all killed my family! My friends!" "You also did that." "You might have killed more of them than we did." "Truly all I did was hold a door shut." This is vicious I forgot how off the walls fucked up the whole Josh thing was

"Shit now I gotta do math in front of people."

Caldwell's silly little poems are actually so fucking impressive tho

"What's the damage on that?" "Rolling still." that is SO ominous

Spent this entire fight thinking the Watchman was throwing I beams at the BOB. Deeply confused when Murph said his players would get mad at him if he didn’t count those as spells. They meant “eye beams” as in laser beams from his eyes, and bottom line is English sucks because you can’t communicate anything clearly

“Murph, you’re living it up in this city.” “Yeah, you’ve invented a city full of anti-goof robots.” “The anti-goof police is out in full force.”

Murph setting up a super high-stakes social environment where the cast cannot pull their usual shenanigans and then deciding this will also be the arc where all the NPCs relentlessly flirt at Moonshine is honestly hilarious

holy shit no punches are being pulled in first half of the Frostwind arc. yeesh

Their massively lame "Headgum does Red Wedding" bit

Emily's Melora bits finally went too far: "Oh, Melora is masturbating in the corner!" "... Jesus." "Eww! That's the worst one!" "That is some Blumhouse shit, Emily!"

I think this podcast is the first time I've ever heard the word “brazier” actually pronounced out loud, and I hate it! please stop saying it

Murph taking the occasional run up at the fourth wall to go 'hey this is pretty good! who wrote this' always amuses me. i get it, if I could do that with my own writing i would

the 'one big bed' bit warms my heart. They keep trying to make it weird but honestly i still mostly come away missing big sleepovers

"I'm not afraid of the elements! The nature of mushrooms is sort of -" "Moonshine... mushrooms don't grow here." *Moonshine's life flashes before her eyes*

I know Balnor just confirmed he was around post early 80s because he quoted ESB, but the way he reacted to that whole gnarly giant murder and disembowelment is *really* giving WWI vibes

Starting to suspect Murph also just learned how to pronounce brazier. There seem to be a weird amount of them around, nobody has a campfire or an oven or a hearth or a fireplace…

The life and times of Ram Daniel

“I can’t tell you what a bad place this was to do a blood ritual.” Oh what a good and reassuring thing to hear from your DM

Murph starting to rate their little intros and immediately getting "bullied" into changing Emily's grade to an A (43)

“I sing a quick Gashlight Anthem”

Emily rolling for her dream and dreaming about Pawpaw dissolving, “that’s a one roll you monster!”

Murph stop making fantasy meth sound fun challenge

This party being fifty percent functionally illiterate is somehow still funny

"Bev crit on finding Werther's one time, and then failed a check to see cannons coming at his house, and his mom, his boyfriend and his grandma almost died."

"Everyone is hot, everyone is horny, welcome to NADDPod" well at least he admits it

#naddpod c1 #carrie watches #(listen i have no tags for podcasts so)#i'm having a grand old time this is such a bingeable campaign #will have to relisten to the first arc at some point tho i had a hard time telling the voices apart at the start for some reason #honestly though do NOT recommend for ppl with body image issues there is a strange ongoing fixation going on #like mostly as a bit but it's still emphatically out there #naddpod #long post

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Engage 9 - 11

Spoilers and thoughts below the cut. Pretty big spoilers for the story this time.

You know it's a good sign when I'm already making plans for the next playthrough. I still want to finish Three Hopes, but Engage is so much fun to play, and there's already so many things I want to do differently to optimize more.

Alcryst and Celine's C support was pretty deep for a C support. They bonded over worrying about their older brothers dying.

Chloe is such a hopeless romantic.

I sense Louis and Chloe may have a romantic leaning support. She understands his ways and he finds her interesting. Their hobbies overlap. He said some stuff that could easily sway romantic is anyone but Louis was saying it . . .

Alfred is so fucking precious, omg. It's so funny remembering people were suspicious of him after his official art was released. Like, I doubt it would even occur to this guy to do something shady or devious. His and Yukana's support started pretty good.

One of my favorite things about Alear is that she's not stupid. Sure, the MC is very basic and generically heroic, but isn't annoying either. Doesn't rush into battle. Isn't irritatingly naïve, etc . . . It's nice.

I'd really like to know more about why Brodia keeps invading the mage country. They said some generic stuff about the mages wanting to wake the fell dragon up, but I hope there's more too it than that.

Oh, shocking, the Brodian king dies (is dying, got shot by that baddie). I'm so surprised. Parents. Dying in my Fire Emblem?

I have a feeling Ivy will be recruitable soon. All her retainers felt guilt fighting the divine dragon, and now her dad left her here to just die. She also lost her ring to us, so that's probably lowered her status on the enemy side too. She also offered her allies a chance to retreat. Definitely doesn't seem evil.

Found Citrinne and Diamant's support interesting. Diamant says he doesn't plan on waging wars when he's king. He acknowledges that it's good for his nobles because it makes them rich, but otherwise is something he wants to avoid. Citrinne supports this and seems to have some kind of diplomatic/messenger role in Brodia.

One of Alfred's talents is making flower garlands 😊. Pretty sure I'm picking him for my S-Support. He's just too adorable, plus I think he and Alear work. Right away he offered friendship and help, and they just have compatible personalities.

Forget Alfred being Dimitri's child, Dimitri is Alfred and Diamant's child. Like he is a bit like both of them smashed together.

Ok, I'm worried. Marth told me I need to stock up on supplies before ch 10 started. This reeks of back-to-back chapters.

I want Rosado on my team so bad already. And Hortensia is not annoying me anymore. She seems honestly worried about Ivy and seems to have no idea what her father is up too.

The artwork for all the places in this game are gorgeous.

Another parent bites the dust. The Brodian king got corrupted. I feel bad for the two brothers.

I made Alcryst attack his own dad. The dialogue made me feel so guilty. It made me feel much worse than Diamant's, until his second half. Alcryst is really growing me as a character too.

Glad the good guys actually tried to kill the villain even though he begged for mercy. That mysterious hooded person showed up (bet it's that girl Alear keeps talking too who had chains on her legs). Also bet it's brainwashing thing. Edit: At least 1/2 guesses right. Ok, probably 2/2 right since this version has never spoken to Alear.

Fell dragon about to eat the king lamo. Literally ate him in a cut scene lol.

Ok, so the 4 wolves are 3 unhinged people and the old guy, who is either a Camus or recruitable later.

Oh. Shit. We just lost the rings. Honestly, I'm more upset seeing all my old protagonists getting turned evil against their will than losing them in gameplay. To be honest, I didn't use them THAT much. It hurts way worse seeing red Marth, Sigurd, Celica, Micaiah, Roy, and Lief.

Losing the Time Crystal. THAT hurts like shit.

Our team took a major L. Honestly, good. 3H's storyline blows this one out of the water, but part of the issue with it was that Edelgard always got her ass kicked except in CF where you just romped over everyone as easily as everyone railroaded over her.

I'm really regretting bringing Citrine and Amber right about now. They're dead weight compared to everyone else who more or less can handle themselves with Alfred, Celine, and Yukana being neigh unkillable at this point.

Fuck yeah! Ivy is here to help me out. And her retainers.

She brought rings. She brought the time turning thingy. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Thank GOD. It's annoying as fuck to reset an entire chapter over a misclick or something and I can't ever let anyone die. I literally think I allowed one person to die the entire time I've played Fire Emblem lol, and this was before turnback was ever a thing too. Zelkov is my new favorite for this. I could kiss him.

Ah!!!! Lyn. And Lucina 😭😭😭😭😭 My girls. 😭😭😭 Lamo, Alear confused Lucina for Marth.

Ok, that chapter was a lot easier than I thought it would be. I stopped after ch 10 yesterday and was wondering about 11, but not too bad. So far, the difficulty balance in this game is pretty good.

Ivy MVP. Happy to have her after that.

Alear, Alcryst, and Diamant all being like "I'm sorry. It's my fault!" Ivy being like "kinda is a bit my fault." Meanwhile Alfred is just awkwardly sitting here being like . . . "I'm the only who didn't make a dumb call here."

I like seeing Alcryst get angry with Ivy. It seems so human. I like the royal characters so far a lot, except Hortensia but she's growing on me. I just wish Celine also got more attention.

This kinda feels a bit like the end of a part 1.

#fire emblem #fire emblem engage #fe engage #fe17

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Who do each of the children take after? (In terms of looks and personality)♥️

anon i am kissing on the cheek for this <3 physical descriptions for people specifically is like my achilles's heel in my writing but i tried lmfao :') here are some messy thoughts about their babies!

naerys:

has wave-y platinum hair and brown eyes, gets freckles in the summer. has a bit of aemond's aquiline nose (sort of looks like a young rhaenyra with darker eyes and freckles?)

the happiest, most-loved baby girl on the planet <33333 so are her siblings but she gets the full early-20-somethings, naive and excited new parents experience

once she's like, 6ish months?? luke and aemond just start bringing her everywhere :') she gets comfortable around new people, places, and LOVES dragons (vhagar and arrax love her too, and so does her own hatchling, even if she's not allowed to get too close to her yet)

whip-smart like both her parents!! she develops a talent for high valyrian linguistics like luke has. she's also a complete nerd for history like aemond and luke

in general she's interested in so! many! things!! she has a habit of spreading herself a bit too thin a lot of the time but she's one of those academic weapon people that always pulls through :') her parents are Concerned but Proud because they can relate

remembers everything her siblings say ever

she was too young to remember aerea being born but she recalls being brought to the hospital by uncle jace to meet baelon after he's born as one of the most exciting days of her life <3

aerea:

has curly pale hair and brown eyes, freckles are a little more persistent :) people say she resembles luke a LOT

her egg doesn't hatch and she definitely has the same Kid Whose Egg Didn't Hatch Syndrome that aemond did 🥲 as well as that urge to Be The Best once she actually claims a dragon (more on that later!!)

(i will add though that luke and aemond are better parents than what they had by miles, and she's never made to feel less than by them or her siblings. feels important <3)

without fail will fall asleep on nae's shoulder during any car ride longer than 1.5 hours (like luke used to always do on aemond or jace)

definitely a bit of a shit-stirrer (luke and aemond are adamant she gets that from the other LMAO) it's okay because most of the incidents she causes are objectively funny

she tends to underplay her academic achievements like luke despite everything :') but she's wicked smart like both her parents; they wish she'd talk more about it

she's really into dance when she's little!! she's that kid who's always losing a shoe or prop in the middle of a group routine (but dancing through to earn them extra points 🫶🏻) cue aemond targaryen, prince of westeros, awkwardly shuffling through a crowd of moms like "excuse me, i think that's my daughter's shoe..."

baelon:

looks like a little aemond with dark hair and luke's eyes!!

thinks the world of his big sisters and parents <3 luke and aemond don't know where he got that from

he's also bad at high valyrian like aemond. when he's a kid he has to spend extra time with luke doing worksheets and drills on breaks and summer vacation :') luke's determined to get him fluent if it kills him (as in kills luke, not his son)

can talk a mile a minute when he's excited about something (both his parents), which is kind of... all the time. luckily he has adults in his life who are very interested in what he has to say (picture aemond double-tasking as he's feeding the dragons, "oh, really? wow. tell me what else happened at school")

when he's little he either sleeps spread-eagle or slumped over with his butt in the air like a cartoon character 😭 he's kicked aemond in the throat multiple times when they've let him in the bed (daeron has also done this to him when they were kids :// and ty that one time)

he is SCRAPPY like both of them smh luke has to put him in hockey and there are entire photo albums dedicated to their littlest baby in the mini penalty box <3 he's also literally the sweetest though?? so he somehow gets away with it

#lsts #lucemond #lsts naerys #lsts aerea #lsts baelon #tysm for the ask!!! <3333 #im gonna be a lil slow the next week bc Things but i'll be trying to work on stuff as well :)#wynch writing

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the way I typed out this big long thing the one time i decided not to answer an ask in a different word document only for my BROWSER TO CRASH AND LOSE EVERYTHING LOL NO TALK ME I’M ANGY

1) Describe their first date.

A little chaotic lol. Morgan gets "paid" in expensive opera tickets for a job she did, and she figures since she can't sell them she might as well use them, so she invites Glenn, on the “condition” that she gets him weed, which she does, like a true gentlewoman. Like the way you buy flowers for your date.

Turns out the tickets are for Puccini’s Turandot, which is awkward because 1) it’s in that uncomfortable liminal space of “racist but seminal part of opera canon,” in the same way Madama Butterfly is (also a Puccini work. Funny, that) and 2) Glenn’s kind of high so when the part where the Prince and the titular Turandot sing a love duet to each other almost immediately after a character has been tortured and then kills herself out of love for the Prince (spoilers for a 100 year old opera ig) Glenn just goes, “HEY MAN WHAT THE FUCK,” which makes Morgan basically howl with laughter and the two are promptly kicked out.

Personally I would have just let them stay, the opera’s basically almost over by that point, but that’s just me. Anyway, Glenn’s feeling bad but Morgan’s just like, “It’s cool, dude, shit’s racist anyway.”

They go to a bar and get a little tipsy, tipsy enough for them to come up with the brilliant idea of breaking into the classroom where Morgan does her piano tutoring (I’m assuming there was some shit-talking regarding this while they were at the bar which lead to this brilliant idea). Morgan shows off her mad skillz, Glenn is suitably impressed, and they almost get caught by security while they’re fucking around, so they hide under the piano, where the heady combination of booze + weed + adrenaline + proximity + general feeling of “wow, Morgan’s so cool” = Glenn kissing Morgan.

They leave and head to Morgan’s apartment, where things very quickly escalate, but then very suddenly and very quickly de-escalate, and the night ends with them both sleeping together, in a very literal sense, with both of them deciding that they’ll deal with things when they wake up in the morning together.

So you know, all in all, a pretty good date.

39) When and how did they admit that they loved each other? If they haven’t yet, why?

I’ve thought up a lot of situations and a lot of scenarios for these two, but the one I’ve always had trouble on was this one! I don’t actually know if they have ever said the actual words out loud. Morgan is very taciturn and guarded so she would rather show her love through her actions rather than words. Glenn is emotionally constipated in general anyway, so he also tries to show his love through his actions, with slightly less success than Morgan, but he does try. I also think both of them grew up with parents who didn’t outright say the words “I love you” to them, so for both of them it’s really awkward hearing it, too.

I think for Morgan in particular, the closest she’s ever “said” it was during a trip to Disney World. It's their first trip together as a couple, Morgan's first time ever on any Disney property, and probably their last hurrah on the east coast before they head west to California, so naturally they're both feeling like they're young, dumb and full of you know.

It’s their second day there, Morgan’s still a little bit low-key drunk from doing the Drinking Around the World challenge the night before, Glenn is basically dead on his feet from trying to do the same, so she parks Glenn on a bench so she can get them both water (and a dole whip for Glenn), and it’s taking a weirdly long time for Morgan to come back so he goes to look for her only to find her basically unleashing a no-holds-barred beat down on a face character.

He spirits her away to their motel room before she gets arrested, or worse, banned from Disney, where he patches her up and cleans her injuries (all cosmetic, thankfully) because neither of them have health insurance and want to risk going to the emergency room, and Morgan tells Glenn, (again, still kind of drunk and also wired from the adrenaline and the pain of her injuries and also from having to see a shitty person from her past in a place that’s supposed to be happy and fun) that he’s, “the only mother-fucker who can handle me,” which, as far as Just Morgan Things go, is basically a love confession anyway.

Anyway, that's why I draw Morgan with a slightly fucked up right earlobe.

21) Do they enjoy domestic life?

I had this whole long answer about how they both want kids (and Morgan wants a house, eventually) but they also both want to keep their jobs but with the type of career they have (Glenn’s is obvious, Morgan is principle dancer on tour in her prime) makes it really hard to be domestic and stay at home all the time, and even when one (or both) of them is at home base, neither want to do the stay-at-home spouse thing, but since they’re committed to staying together, they work it out, but not without their fair share of arguments and compromises, but seeing as how it all got deleted, I will just say, “not at first, but they manage and eventually they do grow to appreciate it,” and link you to this ship meme I did a long time ago to keep track of my own shit of cute couple-y domestic things they do.

15) What songs remind you of their relationship?

You just wanna know my Glenn/Morgan playlist ;p Well it’s a work in progress so maybe later.

I originally listed only 2 songs, but this time I will list 3, you’re welcome.

Blues for Klook – Eddy Louiss

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The figure skating fans will know what this piece is. No lyrics, just mood, and what a mood it is. Dark, brooding and very sensual. I don’t often portray Glenn and Morgan like this, but I do think people see them as pretty sexy, individually and also definitely together in a moody, “mad, bad, and dangerous to know,” sort of way.

The Day Before You Came – ABBA

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It's funny, but I had no sense of living without aim The day before you came

Probably my favorite ABBA song, despite the melancholic, wistful feel if you take the lyrics at face value it’s about a person recalling their previous dull and monotonous life before the titular ‘you’ comes along and changes things. This is also a song that is apparently subject to much more sinister interpretations, such as the ‘you” being dead or even a murder. Glenn would appreciate the conspiracy theory-ness of it all.

Marauders – Thao and the Get Down Stay Down

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I got that poison Carve it on out Barely served me then And it only hurts me now My darlin’ Your patience Rain it on me I know daughters of marauders are just so hard to please

Of course I have a Thao song for the occasion. Sometimes you bring baggage into the relationship and the kindest thing you can do it ask your partner to help you bear it.

Honorable mentions include: Nature Boy (Nat King Cole), You and I (Lady Gaga), The Ugly and the Beautiful (The Real Tuesday Weld), Venus in Furs (Velvet Underground)

#that's all she wrote lol #thanks for playing despite my browser betraying me i loved answering the questions #dungeons and daddies #dndads #dungeons and daddies odyssey #dndads odyssey #glenn close #morgan freeman #musicverse #Youtube

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